What It's All About

Time to talk about what this is all about…babies! I love babies and kids. I always have. I started babysitting in middle school and kept on through college. I loved being around kids.

I knew I wanted to be a mom and I’m pretty sure I will make a good one…especially since I was raised by the best there is. Even in my mid-twenties I would get a longing feeling when I’d see a Pampers commercial. I couldn’t wait to have an adorable baby like that. As I continued to get older and kept dating all the wrong guys, I was worried that my clock would keep ticking and I wouldn’t get the chance to get married and have babies. Now that I have met the man of my dreams and he has become my husband, the longing for a child is TONS stronger. I want he and I to share the role of parents and to extend the love we have for one another to a baby. I can see what a great father he would be when he interacts with his nephews and when he has to be the first one to grab our friends’ baby when he wakes up from a nap. I love seeing his baby pictures and I dream of having a Little Michael someday. He was so stinking adorable and I want to have a little one just like him…(except maybe have a smaller head).

God has definitely put the desire in our hearts for a baby and we will continue to pray that he will grant us that special gift. I definitely feel an emptiness for not being a mom and not knowing how great that gift will be. Month after month I would break down into sobs when I would get my period. It just hurts so badly to want something so badly and not have any control over it. I’m so blessed to have such a wonderful husband that is so supportive and holds me and lets me cry when I’m upset about this. I couldn’t be in this journey without him.

Jeremiah 29:11: “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”

I want to wish all the moms out there a happy Mother’s Day. I hope you all realize what a special gift God has given you and to cherish your children every day and let them know how much you love them.