Post-Derby

So many times, I've come to the blog to write a new post and I just stare at the screen and have no clue what to write. Today isn't much different. I no longer know what to say. I feel like the tears are drying up, but the sadness isn't gone. I don't get emotional as often as I have. I guess that's a good thing. I know there are so many things to be thankful for and so much that others are dealing with that are so much greater than our infertility.

I know what's coming up this weekend, but I hope I don't let my heart fully know what's going on. Both my husband and I are thankful for our moms and we plan to celebrate them and all they've done for us.

I had a pretty good derby week. It seemed to fly by and I didn't get a chance to do everything I had wanted. I missed the chow wagon, but I did get to the track, got to wear my new fascinator, place some bets, eat a few pieces of derby pie, and attend a couple super fun parties.

I like having the freedom to go to parties and do fun things, but honestly I've had that time in my life for so many years. I do love the parties, but I'm ready to be stuck at home for a new baby. I always felt bad for my friends that had to leave early because they had to put a baby to bed, but now I'm jealous of them.

I can't express how much Jeter has changed our lives though. He really has been a special addition to our family. I don't know if I'm pouring more love into him because I have so much to give for a baby, but he is definitely our baby right now. I am so obsessed with that 4-legged animal. I'm now planning our social life around him. I don't like being away from him very long and we always try to plan things where he's included.

More than anything I'm trying to trust God and just keep my heart filled with thankfulness to Him that it can't hold anything else. I'm truly very blessed. I have a wonderful husband, amazing parents, fabulous friends, a great job, an awesome church, and I live in a pretty cool city. God has been taking care of me and I'll continue to let Him do great things in my life.