How Much Longer?

We are currently in week 29 of our pregnancy. Although everything has gone great, I'm constantly worried when she doesn't move enough in a day and I worry if I'm getting all the right vitamins and nutrition for her. On top of it, I don't love all the crazy things happening to my body and how I'm learning new limitations now. 

What I do love about being pregnant though is all the love I've gotten from friends and family (and even strangers). It seems so many love a preggo. Our journey to get to this wasn't easy and it seems so long ago when we did our IVF. We are in a different journey now and I couldn't feel more blessed. I just feel like time is dragging by...every morning that I wake up, I think what day it is and how much longer until the due date. It still seems far away.

Now that we are in the third trimester and the weeks are going by, it still seems so far away and not even in my reality yet. I just can't wait to have this baby in my arms for the first time and see the glow on my husband's face. I can't imagine a moment more precious than that.

I've now had 2 baby showers and they are so much fun. I love all this baby stuff. There was a time that I couldn't walk by the baby section in Target without tears of pain in my heart, but now I can't go in without checking to see if there's something new or fabulous that our daughter has to have.

My first shower in April was given by my infertility support group. It meant so much to me that these ladies were supporting me. I didn't expect them to even attend my shower much less host one for me. It was soooo much fun. The cute stuff for our Little Peanut and all the fun food and conversation got me so excited.

My second shower was last weekend hosted by my closest long-term friends. It was hosted by my UK girls and 2 great friends that were also bridesmaids. Most of them were from out of town and we made a weekend out of it. I love getting to spend time with all of them and I felt so incredibly loved. The shower was so amazing. I've been to a lot of baby showers, but this one had to be one of the nicest I've seen. They went over the top to make sure it was special and I can't thank them enough. I'm certainly blessed to have these 5 ladies in my life. Well, actually to have all the ladies that were at the shower in my life. I wouldn't be pregnant and this blessed without their prayers.

Blessed

I know we've been terrible about keeping up with our blog. Although our infertility journey is on pause, there's still a lot going on in our lives. We are beyond excited about becoming parents and how it will change our lives. I know infertility is still part of our reality and we hope to have a sibling in a couple years for our little Peanut, so I'm already praying that God will bless us with another pregnancy after this. It definitely seems crazy to think that far in the future, but growing our family won't be over after August.

I am definitely not one of those women that love pregnancy. It has not been fun and even quite stressful. I don't love how my body is so different. I've gone to the gym some, but my workouts are much different and I get disappointed that I'm not in the best shape anymore. As my belly keeps growing, I get excited for the arrival of our baby, but I miss the ease of bending over. Regardless, I love the gift of life that God has give me responsibility of and I will never seriously complain about pregnancy. I wanted this so much and I still know so many that would dream of what I'm going through.

I think the years of infertility have probably taken away some of the fun of what pregnancy is usually about for women. I worry a lot that something will happen. Everything so far has been great. I'm taking lots of vitamins and avoiding all of the 'don'ts' on the pregnancy food list. But it's hard to accept that things are going well. I pray for her every day that she is ok and is healthy. All of our ultrasounds and blood work show that she couldn't be more perfect.

Also, I'm still in contact with my other infertile friends and I just wish I could share this journey with them. I just found our last night that one of them had an unsuccessful attempt with a very rough IVF cycle. It just broke my heart and I prayed so hard that they would be getting a positive test.

Much of my prayers had been to make my parents experience being grandparents. With my dad's disease, I don't think he quite understands yet what is about to happen, but my mom is so thrilled. Just like my wedding, I sometimes think she is just as excited if not more. No doubt she will make an amazing grandmother and I'm so glad to give her something positive in her life.

Without a doubt, I know what a miracle this Peanut is for us. God has really blessed us. I can't express how amazing the attention and love that has been given to us feels!