Blessed

I know we've been terrible about keeping up with our blog. Although our infertility journey is on pause, there's still a lot going on in our lives. We are beyond excited about becoming parents and how it will change our lives. I know infertility is still part of our reality and we hope to have a sibling in a couple years for our little Peanut, so I'm already praying that God will bless us with another pregnancy after this. It definitely seems crazy to think that far in the future, but growing our family won't be over after August.

I am definitely not one of those women that love pregnancy. It has not been fun and even quite stressful. I don't love how my body is so different. I've gone to the gym some, but my workouts are much different and I get disappointed that I'm not in the best shape anymore. As my belly keeps growing, I get excited for the arrival of our baby, but I miss the ease of bending over. Regardless, I love the gift of life that God has give me responsibility of and I will never seriously complain about pregnancy. I wanted this so much and I still know so many that would dream of what I'm going through.

I think the years of infertility have probably taken away some of the fun of what pregnancy is usually about for women. I worry a lot that something will happen. Everything so far has been great. I'm taking lots of vitamins and avoiding all of the 'don'ts' on the pregnancy food list. But it's hard to accept that things are going well. I pray for her every day that she is ok and is healthy. All of our ultrasounds and blood work show that she couldn't be more perfect.

Also, I'm still in contact with my other infertile friends and I just wish I could share this journey with them. I just found our last night that one of them had an unsuccessful attempt with a very rough IVF cycle. It just broke my heart and I prayed so hard that they would be getting a positive test.

Much of my prayers had been to make my parents experience being grandparents. With my dad's disease, I don't think he quite understands yet what is about to happen, but my mom is so thrilled. Just like my wedding, I sometimes think she is just as excited if not more. No doubt she will make an amazing grandmother and I'm so glad to give her something positive in her life.

Without a doubt, I know what a miracle this Peanut is for us. God has really blessed us. I can't express how amazing the attention and love that has been given to us feels!