I just want to let everyone know, I was very hesitant about doing this blog. I really wasn’t sure if I wanted to expose our lives and share all my feelings. This has definitely been a journey already and I couldn’t decide if I wanted so many people to know what’s really going on. I am a talker I know and I love getting to know people and I even at times tend to over share. However, in the case of our infertility, I just feel like it’s a weakness and it does get me emotional to talk about. Just like my dad’s Alzheimer’s, we didn’t talk about it the first few years of his diagnosis. It’s almost like if you don’t talk about, it isn’t real. Well, his disease is real and you need support and prayer. So similarly, we need support and prayers for our infertility.
My husband is definitely stronger as a spiritual leader and he was all for a blog. I kept pushing back and I was stalling. I just wanted more time to know what to do and how to feel about a blog. It was on my mind often for several days and all I could do was pray about it. I was doing my quiet time from a project that our pastor gave us back in January 2011 (sorry I’m behind, Bob Cherry, but I will get it done) and the verse that stuck out to me was Romans 6:13.
Do not offer any part of yourself to sin as an instrument of weakness, but rather offer yourselves to God as those who have been brought from death to life; and offer every part of yourself to him as an instrument of righteousness.
I saw this verse as telling me, yes, I need to do the blog. I need to be an “instrument of righteousness” and share my struggle in the hopes that it might help others. I’ve read a couple blogs from fertility challenged people and checked out some Facebook pages, but none that gave me a lot of substance. So if I couldn’t find something to give me advice and hope, then what are other infertility couples doing? My husband and I are not experts on infertility (we’re still early in the process), and we don’t have ministry degrees, but we do have a strong faith that God will be there throughout our lives and he will get us through whatever happens. So if our blog helps just one couple, then we have been the instrument that God has called us to be.
P.S. Thanks for all the outpouring of love everyone gave after our first post. You have no idea how wonderful your words and kindness have been. We feel truly blessed to have wonderful family and friends that support us.
I wish there was a FB "like" button on blogger! Love Romans and love that verse. God has a plan, His plans seem slower than ours but His timing is always best. Rock on fellow blogger!
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