That Emptiness

I just finished reading an amazing book The Kite Runner. It was sooo good, I could barely put it down. I had seen the movie years ago and never got the book until recently. Such an amazing story and great characters. It was so well written and mid way through the book I find that the main character and his new wife can't get pregnant and with testing and treatment are diagnosed with unexplained infertility.  It makes me sad for our current infertility and every couple struggling with this. The author Khaled Hosseini writes an ending to Chapter 13 that is so powerful I wanted to share on the blog...

Sometimes, Soraya sleeping next to me, I lay in bed and listened to the screen door swinging open an shut with the breeze, to the crickets chirping in the yard. And I could almost feel the emptiness in Soraya's womb, like it was a living, breathing thing. It had seeped into our marriage, that emptiness, into our laughs, and our lovemaking. And late at night, in the darkness of our room, I'd feel it rising from Soraya and settling between us. Sleeping between us. Like a newborn child.

I sense that the author knows what infertility feels like to write this. There is much, much more to the book, but those words really stood out to me. I know there is hope for us and I pray that our infertility is something we can look back on some day as a distant struggle and know that it made us stronger people and more faithful Christians.