Settling In For the Long Haul

Today marked our 3rd appointment over the last two weeks. We actually had a decent appointment today. The news was we had to wait longer. That may not sound awesome, but it's better than what we had been hearing. Nobody was diagnosed with some other infertility condition and most importantly no more drugs were prescribed. But still, we have to keep waiting.

I guess I'm looking at it as baby steps, or maybe the doctor just liked bringing in these $40 co-pays. God has taught me to trust him and have faith, and then he taught me to pray; both were through this experience. I'm starting to wonder if patience is next on his list.

I'm not a very patient guy. We started looking at houses and guess who wants to just buy the first house we can afford, me. We start looking at vacations and guess who wants to go the earliest week possible, me. If we are out and get hungry and decide to stop and eat somewhere, I am the one who wants to stop at the first resaurant we drive by, even if it is Arby's.

Patience has never been my strong suit, maybe God has that on his checklist. I'm OK with that and I'm sure Veronica is more than OK with that. I kept thinking throughout this entire process that we are just a few days away, the next appointment will be the one. That only set me up for frustration and failure. I'm starting to learn that I can't think like that, that this very well could be a long and drawn out process that we are just in the beginning stages.

Like I said, I want what God wants; I'm just not sure what he wants yet. On the brightside of all of this is that if I am patient and accept that it will probably take a while. Who knows, maybe God will surprise us.

James 1:2-4 "Dear brothers and sisters, when troubles come your way, consider it an oppotunity for great joy. For you know that when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. So let it grow, for when your endurance is fully developed, you will be perfect and complete, needing nothing."