I know it's only Tuesday, but it's been a rough week. I have felt miserable and I wonder if I'll always experience pains from PCOS or bad periods. I'm just feeling a lot of discouragement. Hopefully I'll bounce out it, but I feel like I stay busy and that keeps my mind off of the pain of my body and my heart. I'm also a bit nervous about a doctor's appointment in the morning. We go back to the urologist. I think the reason I'm nervous is because I just don't feel too positive about it and I expect to hear the worst.
We also heard from another infertile friend and she finally got a positive pregnancy test...however, ended up having a miscarriage. My heart goes out to her and I was able to give her encouraging words. I just have a hard time encouraging myself. I don't even know this woman very well, but we have bonded because we are going through the same things. She hasn't been able to talk to a lot of people about her situation and I'm very thankful that she trusts us and can share, so we can pray for her and her husband. It's also nice to have her prayers and to do all we can to encourage each other.
I made several friends on the jury a couple weeks ago and in chatting with one lady, she somehow told me that she was trying to get pregnant without success. So I started to share my story too. It got to a point in our conversation where she said, "Well, I know all about your ovulation, but I don't even know your name!" This cracked me up. I do tend to share too much, as this blog can witness. But I know how much it helps to talk about it with someone that understands. I wanted to share with her my pain and I wanted to help her too.
I really hate to hear when there are other people facing this struggle, but it gives me a little strength to know that God hasn't singled me out with this. I just need to slow down and spend some time with Him and pray that I can get some understanding out of this.
Stand firm against him, and be strong in your faith. Remember that your Christian brothers and sisters all over the world are going through the same kind of suffering you are.
1 Peter 5:9
God doesn't always answer our prayers the way we ask or in our timing but He does always provide. He provides people that sometimes can deliver Hope. Although at times it doesn't feel like enough since we dont get our hearts desire that instant but His Grace is more than enough. Promise.
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