Time for a New Year

Since we're just on maintenance mode right now for our fertility, it seems like we don't think about it as much. I'm not experiencing my nightly crying. I'm really trying to focus on being strong. I am worried about January though. I'm really hopeful that our last attempt at IUI will be successful. Sometimes if I really think about it, I get freaked out. What if we don't ever get to have children?? That thought scares me to death and it seems like it's a reality we may have to face. I know that may sound super negative, but I just want to prepare myself for the worst.

My wonderful husband said something to me last night when I was feeling down about all of it. He said 2013 could have some great things for us. Honestly, 2012 sucks. It has not been a great year. Yeah, we've done some fun stuff...but it can be hard to focus on having fun when this is always in the back of my mind. I'm praying that 2013 will be much better.

2009 wasn't a great year for me either. I was dealing with a bad ex-boyfriend and was just bummed on being single. Lots of bad first dates. But like magic, 2010 became the best year I had ever had up to that point. In January, I started dating the adorable Mike Idle and I got a surprise trip to LA with two of my favorite gals. The year was off to a great start. By February I knew this is the guy I would marry and couldn't live without. The rest of the year including having tons of fun together, getting engaged, and planning our special wedding.

So basically I'm hoping that the complete change from 2009 to 2010 will be mirrored for 2012 to 2013. I know that God has great things in store for us.

You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised.
Hebrews 10:36